Sunday, March 15, 2009

haphazard

haphazard

Everything is topsy-turvy right now. A sudden jostle could knock the whole thing flat. The husband's several weeks now into full fledged unemployment and we have less structure to our lives than ever. I'm all for free spirit flexibility, but we've become so fluid we spill all over everywhere. It's a weird time. I've never craved stability so much.

It's still Sunday. And I'm still making pizza. And our days are anchored by little things, weak ties attached to small silly routines I make up out of nothing. Something more, some sort of bigger picture involvement with expectations and obligations beyond my own brain, would be nice. But this is what we've got right now. We're just trying to hold it steady.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

You should definitely be a WRITER. Think about it.

Anonymous said...

Hang on - you are so strong and you don't even know it.

Jocelyn said...

You know, I have been reading your blog for a while, and your last post when you said you had something to talk about, I had a feeling it would be a layoff. I am in the midst of the same thing myself. I also have a husband who commmuted too far and I saw too little. He was laid off in December. He still has not found work. To cope, we are selling our house. What a celebration!

What I can tell you is this; 1. It sucks and you will be in a dark pit for a while and 2. You will also still be able to see the light. This is the truth. This is not a situation we wanted, and I know it's not a situation you wanted. But you can get through it, just as we are. It will take lots of adjustments--some you are willing to make, some you are not, but you'll adjust nonetheless.

I wish you the best of luck. Look for the light at all times!